Pictures Can Be Deceiving.

So I got this fabulous tan by the River at Pangasinan 2 weeks ago, and I even took a few photos just to make sure I have proof I had a tan, just in case someone noticed (or wouldn't notice) my tan.

I posted the said photo in a gay lifestyle oriented site, Guys4Men, and after just a couple of minutes after successfully posting it, a lot of guys started sending me messages, wanting to meet me.

Whoa! What just happened here? Funny thing, I have been in the site for more than 3 years, and not once in my G4M life have I received a lot of messages. Messages ranging from "Hi!"s to the endless phone numbers.


Now I truly believe in the saying "Pictures can be deceiving."



LOL.

25 Random Things about Me - from FACEBOOK!

Get to know more about me!

1. I honestly do not know what to write about myself. I keep a blog and make sure that I update it everytime, but when it comes to writing about myself, I'd rather answer questions than just write random stuff.

2. I have 3 blogs, one for the serious me (bogartbogart.blogspot.com), another blog for my gayer version (pintouche.blogspot.com), and another for my gayest(kumekemengkabuhayan.blogspot.com).

3. If Beyonce has Sasha Fierce for an alter ego, I have Beaugarte Beautious. Beaugarte is just a "frenched" name, spelled like a name in French. But it's just Bogart. Long story on that one. Beautious is m gay family name. I don't really think Beaugarte is the alter ego. I think William Charles IS the ultimate alter ego. :)

4. I like the smell of freshly, clean laundry and newly cut grass.

5. I love my name. I will never trade my name for any other.

6. The original spelling of my family name was "CENIT". American missionaries came and registered all the names of the families in Bicol in the early 1920's and when my grand father gave his family name, they spelled it incorrectly - or rather fabulously.

7. I love adobo. I cook great adobo, and I have always been interested in tasting different kinds of adobo to find out ways on how to cook it differently.

8. I designed and created my own outfit for our company's Year end Party. I love it, it is the first formal wear that I have created for myself, or for anyone.

9. I love shoes. Last year I had 4 brand new pair of different stilletos. I may be a big guy, but I thank God for big shoe sizes. :)

10. I have a long torso and short legs. Anatomically speaking, my body is not proportional. It is a good thing that some body parts compromise my leg's lack of length - wink wink*.

11.I always bring a big bag to work. What's in the bag? An umbrella, pens, my wallet, my cellphone, my cellphone's headset and a pair of false eyelashes. I bring big bags because I might stumble upon something worth bringing home - I don't need plastic bags anymore.

12. Although I love talking, I prefer to remain silent at home. When I am at home, I seldom talk, it is my way of resting my voice and just relaxing.

13. When I get angry, I often speak in English. But if I started my tirade with a Tagalog cuss (ie> P*tang*na m*), I usually end the entire paragraph in Tagalog.

14. I think that I need more time to think about 25 Random things about myself.

15. I own 2 pairs of eyeglasses with scratch resistant lens. I am probably the most clumsy person when it comes with objects. One I went out with white sneakers. When I got home that day they were already gray.

16. I walk when I am upset. It helps me clear my mind.

17. I have terribly memory. Once I was talking to guy. He noticed that I didn't recognized him. When I professed that I didn't remember him, he laughed, and said I had already slept with him. Then I remembered. LOL.

18. I love taking pictures. Of myself. I think you all have noticed that already. :)

19. Though I support PETA, I still think fur is fabulous. Bad bad me.

20. After almost a decade after the last episode of Sex and the City, I am still addicted to the series. I have watched the entire series 14 times.

21. I love Chili. Or anything spicy.

22. I once had a relationship that was based purely on physical attraction. The rest were based on mental attraction.

23. I've had a total of 9 serious relationships since I was born. All of them with men.

24. I have 2 finished novels that I want to get published within the year. But I do not know how to start.

25. I do not wear any watches. I used to be obsessive-compulsive about time, so I decided not to wear any watches. Now I learned how to relax and have fun.

Sky, Tree, and Me!

I so love this picture. Thanks Fifi and Iko!

Of Family Reunions,Obscure Towns and Fab Tans,

And so after 4 blissful days, I am back home to 7.5ish climate and fog.

I have been on a 4 day well-deserved vacation, something that I have been dreaming about after working non-stop for one hectic week.

I know I have left a few things undone when I went on vacation a couple of days, but with the new found strength and inspiration, I think I could go through everything when I get back to work tonight. To be perfectly honest, I am excited to go back to work. Weird.

So my wonderful vacation started a on Friday, when we travelled to Mabini, Pangasinan, an obscure little town that did not have internet access and where everyone thinks having fun involved a case of Red Horse and a videoke Machine.

Drinking Red Horse with Good Friends while listening to someone singing at the Villa BRaganza Square

My weekend even involved gate crashing a family reunion. Well, it's not really gate crashing, since I was with Piper's family, and no one really knew who I was and why I was with them on their Family Reunion. But there was brandy and Roasted pig. That I will never resist.

And so we pretended I was a long lost cousin. I even won a lousy but crisp brand new one dollar bill for playing Hep Hep Hooray with some "cousins".

After that afternoon, it was back to drinking Red Horse at the local Videoke Bar/Tourist Spot, Villa Braganza Square, which was literally a small garage with a small stage and a dozen tables for those who want to spend the entire night getting drunk and rowdy.

We got home at around 5 am, but didn't get enough sleep because we had to travel by jeepney to the beach. I was excited, I wanted to get a fab tan.

And a fab tan, I got. The beach was so beautiful. Just last year we went to this pristine beach hours away from civilization, and last Sunday I saw another beautiful beach. I think I'll put "beach hopping" to the list of my favorite things to do. No, make that "visit far beaches and pretend I was in the Bahamas." Teehee.

So see, my weekend was full of unexpected surprises. I was even surprised to find out that there was a small river near the house we were staying at. I went for a short swim there as well.

Swimming at the nearby River.

Can't wait to go back there. It was a wonderful weekend.

Over and Over Again.

An old saying goes "Patience is Virtue."

I haven't been patient, and when I touched your lips I began to wonder if what I was doing was right.

"Is this right?" I asked, full of expectations.

"Yes," you said.

I faltered, knowing that what you said was right.

You said it was ok, that it wasn't right but what we felt was not wrong. So I continued kissing you until I realized I was passionately in love with you.

The air was cold, and your were shivering. I hugged you tightly in my arms and felt your warmth. I kissed your back.

"If we do this," I asked, "Will I ever see you again?"

"Yes," you answered.

With that promise we started exploring our depthless emotions. With moans of pleasure and passion we entered paradise.

A couple of years back I promised myself never to fall in love with someone that easily. But I faltered. I failed drastically. I succumbed to my loneliness and fell, like a child from a tall tree.

And now I am falling... falling.

I know sooner or later I would feel the ground. I would feel the hurt and the pain. I will die - as I have died before.

Over and over again.

Over and over again.

Over... and over again.

When You Wish Upon a Star

"Starlight, Starbright,

first star I see tonight,

Wish I may, Wish I might,

Have the wish, I wish tonight."

I have this thing about seeing the first star on a dark, cloudless, and sometimes moonless nights. Neither the fact that it may be planet, or that there are other indetectable stars out there hinder me from whispering the words I have written above.

Last night, when I had the chance to actually look at the night sky, I saw a twinkling light, a star, and involuntarily, I uttered that words that I have been uttering since I was in grade school.

Then I made my wish.

It was more of a question actually.

"Will I...?"

The year didn't really start out as I hoped it would, but hey, I have great hope that this year would be a good year for me.

I know wishing something won't do anything. "Nasa Diyos ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa." (God helps those who help themselves.) I know wishing on a star won't do anything not unless I do something about it.

Here's to 2009, and to the people who believe that sometimes, wishing on a star isn't really a bad thing. It just shows us that despite everything, a small, twinkling light can bring hope to everyone- kids from 1, to 92.

Happy New Year to all.

The Pseudo-New Year's Resolutions List

A couple of days ago, my friends and I talked about New Year's Resolutions.
Last year, I only had one New Year's Resolution, and that was to not bother about having one.
I never really believed in New Year's Resolutions, I mean, you can always change your mind right? So what's the big deal about it?



Anyway, I have decided to create a list list - things that I have to do before the end of the year 2009. Things to do for 12 months, at least one thing done every two months. Fairly reasonable, since some of the things listed can be done simultaneously, like hitting 2 birds with one stone.
After careful thought, here is the first half of the list of things I have to do before the end of 2009:





1. Buy a Digital Camera

Being the photo freak that I am, some friends have suggested that I take up a few short courses for Photography. A second hand camera would do, I am planning to save up for a good camera though, the one professionally used for photo shoots. Anyone with hand-me-downs? :)



2. Ride a Boat

In my 26 years of existence, the only boats I managed to ride were the rent-by-the-hour boats at the Burnham Lake - a 4 feet deep manmade lake filled the sewage water right smack in the middle of Baguio City. This goal brings me to the 3rd goal I have for the coming year.



3. Visit the Visayas

Full of pristine beaches and gorgeous Chinoys, the Visayas region has been a hotspot for PLMs (People Like Me). Boracay, with it's white sands and overly expensive resorts, have lost it's luster, but I'd love to visit just to say that I have actually been there. I would want to visit Cebu, also.



4. Get another tattoo


The pheonix tattoo I got last year wants to get a sister. I have been planning to get something tattooed right on my spine, it means "happy and gay" in Thai. I'm trying to get a picture of that, maybe I'll post it next time.


5. Get membership to a gym and start losing weight

Alright, alright, seems to be something I may not really be committed to. Hey, maybe this the the part where it actually is a New Year's Resolution. Still, I really do need to get healthy. I am starting to feel nauseaous constantly these past weeks.


6. Get at least one novel published

Another dream I have had for the longest time. I have already finished writing 2 novels, and I have 2 unfinished novels just waiting for me to get right to them. I have been researching on ways to have these books published, can someone help?

Christmas with Sharon Cuneta

Christmas has come and gone, and with a few days left in the year, I was actually hoping I'd get a lot of things as Christmas gifts. Just a couple of gifts came, though, but it doesn't matter, the gifts were thoughtful.

So I got myself some gifts for Christmas, not a lot, but at least I bought some stuff for me.

1. Sharon Cuneta's classic movie collection
2. Old movies in VCDs and DVDs
3. Bob Ong's books
4. 2 pairs of Buffalo pants (for sale of course)

The company I have been working for for the past 2 years decided that we needed time off for the Christmas season. It was 4 days of blissful relazation, I thought, so the time was right - I've had a stressful week at work.

I had a list of things that I haven't had the chance to do, and I thought it was the time to actually get to it.

1. Do my laundry
2. Clean my room
3. Movie Marathon
4. Write something for this blog
5. Finish the novel I have started writing

I did the laundry, I cleaned my room, then I started my Movie Marathon with Sharon Cuneta's "Bubukas, Luluhod ang mga tala" ("Tomorrow, The Stars will Kneel"). Then I realized I was bored. ARGH! The only thing I hate (other than Marian Rivera's dancing) is being bored.

Got this copy of "Mrs. Doubtfire", one of my favorite movies, and I watched that while online. I started chatting but that lost it's luster after a couple of minutes.

Whew, I didn't really know what to do anymore. I lied in my bed, just wishing the holidays were over. For the first time this year, I actually wanted to go back to work! I can't believe it.

3 more days to go.

I thought I started liking Christmas. Now I just realized, I still hate it. Aside from Marian Rivera's dancing, of course.

Old Baguio, New Baguio

Here is a picture of Session Road, before and now. I came across this while browsing Google.

Funny how the tall buildings show how highly urbanized we are, but somehow we wish we could go back to the old times, when the air was still fresh and the cars can still park diagonally on the streets.

Hay.

Memories

Here's a blog entry I found, browsing through my old blog 2 years ago. This blog entry amde me realize that I haven't really changed much, I just started learning a lot more.
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It’s cold and I brought an old jacket that smells of mothballs. The keyboard on this computer isn’t functioning very well, I have to hit the backspace key so many times to erase mistakes. I have a lot to complain about, but I didn’t walk 5 blocks just to write about the "not-so-nice" things that happened to me today.

So let me rephrase my opening paragraph.

It’s cold, and I have always enjoyed the cool breeze and low temperatures. It reminds me of my dream to go the Manhattan one day and enjoy the cold that Sarah Jessica Parker is always complaining about. Let’s exchange places Sarah. I’ll bet you’ll miss New York.

It has been several days since the last time I wrote on my diary at home. YES, aside from religiously posting on this online blog, I also keep a private recording of what happens in my life, stuff that is not meant for the public eye. In the pages of that diary, I keep track of what I might easily forget when I grow old. I am afraid to lose memories, wonderful or regrettable events that made me who I am now.

I have kept a diary all my life. Some of them I have lost, I have kept a couple of them, and I read them when I have time. Its funny how I behaved and thought before. I realized that ever since, I have always struggled with my love life. And when I compare myself now to what I was before, I breathe a sigh of relief and thank God that I have learned a LOT.

Going back to the things of the past isnt that hard as other might think. Sometimes, they might even serve as a reminder of what and what not to change, a reminder of happy times to shed light to a gray day, and a reflection of the bad days that will make us strive to make our lives better.

Having said that, I have great confidence that I can face my life now with the reassurance that anything I do, and any consequences it may bring to my life, I will always rise like a phoenix, ready to tackle anything that blocks my way.