The Pursuit of Happiness

How far can you go for the pursuit of real happiness?

My friend quoted a line from the movie "The Pursuit of Happyness", about not having a Y in the word itself. It is true, there is no Y in the word.

It is a very powerful statement. It is not just a play in letters. It is the fact that to be real happy, there shouldn't be any "WHYs".

Why should you be happy? Because you have to.

Why aren't there any Y's in the word happiness? Because in order to be happy, you only have to go with the flow.

A friend is having a real difficult time right now, trying to be happy, and actually finding someone to make him happy, only to learn that there might be a little hitch. Seems that not everything perfect seems to be exactly what it is.

I am having an equally difficult task of being the Devil's Advocate, trying to lessen his burden by letting him know what the pros and cons are in this decision that he has to make. I want him to find real happiness, and so far he seems blissful. But it would be all blissful until someone realizes that he should not have gone this far.

What makes me happy, you might ask... It is being able to be myself, without judgment from anyone. Sounds kinda hard to achieve right? Believe me, it is. In fact, I have never felt real happiness for a while.

People think that happiness comes with another person you can call your better half. Others think that true bliss comes from money, and having lots of it. I personally believe that happiness can only be realize when you feel satisfaction.

And right, we can never really be fully satisfied right.

No matter how hard we try, although we would be able to feel real happiness once in a while, it can never be full. It is the fact of life - the pursuit of happiness is never ending. And it continuously changes.

So to my friend, who seeks the answer to his question, I wish you good luck in realizing what you want. Remember, I will always be here to lend you a shoulder. You can count on that.

I. Am. Not. Getting. Any. Younger.

I. Am. Not. Getting. Any. Younger.

I only spoke this six words twice, three times at most, and every time I say them, the hair at the back of neck stand on end. I am getting older everyday and it's not funny.

A couple of days ago, on our way to SM Makati to buy some things for Fat(slimming)Beki, we passed by an unfamiliar site, something that I have only seen in movies. It was surreal, and although it was so morbid, I knew it was a site worth seeing.

This guy was lying face down in front of the condominium building. He was wearing nice clothes. He looked tall, trim, clean. His shoes where buffed. And he was dead. There was a whole lot of people around the area, just looking around, busybodies who wanted to get a piece of the action. This is real life drama folks. Real life murder - as what I have read after 2 days.

It made me think. This guy was successful. He was at the peak of his life as a bachelor. He almost had everything. Until he lost his life.

Browsing through the gay Social Networking site I have been a member of for years, I saw a profile of someone who professed at being HIV+. In the profile was a link for his blog, which I read. I was amazed, how someone like him could be strong enough to write about something that causes him pain - every day. I admire this person's strength, I would never be that strong.

There was a story about a person who hit his head with a hammer endlessly. He went to the doctor and the doctor asked why he was doing it. "Because it feels so good when I stop doing it."

Life is a bowl of cherries. It has pits.
Life is gambling. You will never know when you would win.
Life is disappointing, but you'll never get what you want if you just stay in the shadows.

I am going to live my life - even if it means that I am actually older than 25. :)